Stop, close your eyes, and bring yourself to the time in your life when you were at your heaviest. For me, that is right now. I have weighed 250lbs for a few years now, and it is the most I have ever weighed. How does that time in your life make your feel? I don't think it matters what your highest weight has been, I think we all feel the same once we have reached that point.
I feel sad, tired, ugly, out of control, unworthy of anything, and disappointed in myself. I am filled with so many other emotions that I just cannot find words for.
I have chosen to have the lap band surgery. I want to begin a new life, one filled with happpiness. I know this is not a fix all, but it's a great jump start that I am blessed to be receiving. My surgery date is June 19, 2009.
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