Since I've been banded I've really come to understand that I am truly addicted to food and I hate that. I was super super naive thinking that the band would "fix" all my issues. So many people talk about their addictions transferring from food to something else, like shopping. I have not gotten to that point yet I'm still addicted to food. That is how I feel anyway. I have really good restriction since my fill on Wednesday. yay! Last night I got home from work and ate dinner and was super satisfied. Then the head hunger set in. I think half my problem is that I was home alone all night and whenever I home alone I find that I just want to eat eat and eat some more. Like I was getting really pathetic looking in the weirdest places for hidden food. A food addict at her worst, no joke. I didn't actually end up eating much at all but the control I felt this addiction has over me really brought me down in spirits.
Honestly I wish I was seeing a therapist for this but where on earth could I find the time for that? Plus it's expensive and Lahey isn't exactly a 5 minute drive for me it's 30-40 minutes. Blah! Am I normal lol or am I as crazy as I feel?
On a different note...
I've been working out alot and I feel awesome! My birthday is November 23rd and my next short term goal is 175lbs, so I need to loose 25lbs. I am setting my Birthday as the target date for that goal. I have learned from past experience that I tend to be unrealistic with goal, what do you guys think about that goal?? Any tips for helping me get there?? Maybe it is aiming to high because it's more than 2lbs per week. haha Like that conversation I just had with myself?
"It is not enough to take steps which may some day lead to a goal; each step must be itself a goal and a step likewise."
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
4 comments:
Congrats on ONEderland! I look forward to seeing my one's someday soon! I don't honestly think that goal is to high, because it's not much over 2 lbs. per week. I'm pretty sure if you keep your focus and continue to work out and make healthy choices, you'll get it!
I stopped setting any goals by a date...just goals and actions to get there. Maybe that would work better? You really cannot control how fast your body lets go of the poundage but you can control what you do to make it happen--say no to one junk food desire a day, work out every day etc. Those are so doable. :)
Congrats on the one-derland achievement!!!
25 pounds in 10 weeks seems a little high - higher than the average of 1-2 pounds that most docs want that is. You could hit it, but I have found that the second half of the journey is so much slower. My goal is to be at 175 by my birthday (a couple days earlier than you) and I am starting at 188. I normally would set it a little higher, but right now I am losing slower and that is ok.
If you get upset with yourself when you miss the goals (or give up part of the way through) you might want to set it closer to 1-1.5 pounds a week. If you are motivated when you fall behind 2-2.5 pounds a week might work for you.
Good Luck!!
The goal is a tough one but it is possible... If a big goal like this will make you work out more or watch what you eat more carefully then more power to you but don't get discouraged if you fall a little short... You will be close, I am sure. *Maria*-blogger from "This one time at BAND Camp..." Follow my journey at mybigfatbandgeeklife.blogspot.com
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