My parents started acquiring Maltese when I was a teenager.
Chaz when I was 15yrs.
Chloe when I was 16yrs.
Candi when I was 17yrs.
Chelsee when I was 19yrs.
I’m a HUGE animal lover, they aren’t just pets they are my
family. I’m so sad to say that my little Chloe passed away on Monday at 11yrs
old. She had a heart condition and there just weren’t any more medications for
her. My whole family is heartbroken.
With this news I couldn’t walk on Monday; I didn’t have it
in me. I was also very prepared to sit in a depressed state yesterday when I
got home from work. I was going to eat junk and watch the Bachelorette that I
recorded on the DVR. I took my little Harvey for a walk (Harvey is my Shih Tzu
I got last year when I moved out of my parents’ house) and was then going to
call it a night (at 7PM).
That’s when something came over me and I realized I have to
break this cycle. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again that I eat due to
emotions….all of them. I’m making a very conscious decision to NOT let this
sadness consume me and rule my life. I’m not going to fill this void with ice
cream. So that is why I forced myself to go for my usual walk last night and I
felt so much better when I got home. I was still sad and expect to be for a
long time but for once I feel like it’s finally clicked……….if I let myself go I’m
just going to become more sad and more depressed. That’s when I’ll eat more and
more and walk less and less. I’m not letting myself do that anymore! I’m so
thankful that I finally seem to get it. It took 27yrs but I got it lol.
In loving memory of Chloe
