I’m an emotional eater, there I said it. However, I think it’s
pretty commonly known that most obese/overweight people are emotional eaters. I
eat for every emotion………HAPPY, SAD, MAD, you name it and I probably eat for it.
I thought that I was “cured” when I had my Lap Band Surgery back in 2009 but I
was wrong. I know there is someone reading this now that thought the same thing
I did so let it be known that YOU ARE WRONG. Just because you have a band doesn’t
mean your problem is forever solved.
Let’s rewind for a moment as I haven’t blogged in FOREVER so
I know some of you might be lost. Like I said I had my surgery back in 2009 and
as of August 2012 I had lost 103lbs and I was only 11lbs from my goal weight!
Yahooo, right!? Well yes, but my weight loss ceased right around then and fast
forward to today I’ve gained 30lbs. Huh? How’d that happen?
STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! In 2012 I moved out of my parent’s
house for the first time, and then I moved again, and then again (within 1 yr)!
I also began the very long process of writing/recording my first EP and then
there were the shows I did once all of that was completed. This timeline brings
us right through December 2013, so about 6 months ago. Oh and I can’t forget I
got a puppy in August 2013 and I love this little guy so much that any time I
was spending on myself I gave to him and I think I packed on my last 10lbs by
doing that.
So what am I doing to remedy the situation I’ve put myself
in? Many things but let’s start with this……..when I was 149lbs, my goal was
138lbs. This was the magical number I had made up in my mind and made myself believe
this was the number that would make me happy. Now, here I sit at 176lbs and
long to be 149lbs again! What a fool I was thinking 149lbs wasn’t good enough.
Why wasn’t it good enough? I was 103lbs down and not only the smallest I have
ever been but was in the normal weight range for the first time ever! We all
want more more more and it took me gaining 30lbs back to realize I was greedy.
Therefore I’ve reevaluated my goal of 138lbs and am now aiming for 148lbs as I
think it’s more reasonable for my frame and I’m very happy with this decision!
So my #1 remedy is changing my mind set!
Remedy # 2 is exercise! I basically stopped exercising due
to my crazy schedule so I’ve cleared my schedule to make time for me. I’ve been walking 45 minutes 7 days per week
and am doing circuit training 3-4 times per week.
Remedy #3 is nutrition! Guilty as charged my diet has
consisted of slider foods! How else did you think I gained 30lbs? I’ve always
said “Your band is only your cheerleader. It can cheer you on from the
sidelines but if you aren’t playing the game you can’t win.” Well I have not
been playing the game but my trusty band hasn’t stopped cheering me on either!
I’m ready to play and make better food choices now and with the encouragement
from my band I know I can be successful! I’ve been there, done that and it
works! I just have to do it again and not stop this time.
I’m not naïve as I know my solutions aren’t fool proof. I’ll
probably gain a few pounds back here and there as the years go by…..I’m not
perfect! However, I know in my heart that I’ll never let myself gain that
amount of weight back again! Let’s do this together if you’re in a similar
situation we need to get out of this funk now!
I can’t believe how long this post is but I guess it’s to be
expected as I haven’t posted in over 1 yr. I’m happy to say that I’ve already
lost 4lbs having been back on the wagon for about a week now. I have 28lbs to
go, let’s do this! I also promise to start posting more often! =)
