Feeling Fat & Afraid

I have to admit I feel fat. I know you are probably rolling your eyes……let me explain. Since my -1cc I’ve been able to basically eat the world and that is what I’ve been doing. I’m shocked at how little self control I have been able to tap into. I have not even stepped on the scale because I am afraid. Afraid!!!!!

Well enough is enough I have to exercise and listen to my body and not eat when it’s not hungry! This is proving really hard, but I feel extremely determined. I know this is a quick little post, I just wanted to keep you updated!

Late Night Eating

Late night eating has felt like it is controlling me lately. It might not be late night technically since I am talking about eating up until 9PM but seeing I go to bed around 9:30PM, it’s pretty late for me. I eat really well all day long and go home from work with a good amount of calories left for the day but after I eat dinner I just go on a food craze! I am not hungry after I eat dinner but I have this constant urge to eat one thing after another no matter how big or small. It doesn’t even matter if I am full I just want to put something in my face, and the band didn’t fix my head just the size of my stomach. Fixing my head is up to me I am truly starting to realize.

The whole time I have been banded I have let the band do the work. I have made sure that I am nice and tight so that I cannot eat things I shouldn’t or eat the amounts I want and I have not made any other significant changes. I do work out but nothing hardcore, really I do the bare minimum. I am especially worried now that I am not in the Green Zone that I will either not loose weight or gain if I continue this way. I feel like it is time to start using my head more like 60% of the time and my band 40% instead of it being the other way around. Actually right now I am probably using my band around 70% of the time and head 30% of the time.

I have a few ideas as to how to start this change and the first is to tackle the late night eating. Starting today my goal is to eat dinner at 6:30 and finish by 7:00 and have one snack after that but by 8:00 at the latest. I am just going to go to bed if I cannot control myself because I have no other choice I have to nip this bad habit. I am also focusing on my nutrition more, making sure I get more protein. Today is my second day without a Starbucks drink and man so I want one, but I keep telling myself I will be okay! I have to eliminate these very high calorie drinks because they are killing me.

If anyone has any pointers for how to control Head Hunger, please send them my way as I could use all the help I can get!  =)